但是这个得累
我真的不想说
也不懂要怎么说
那种累就是我自己知道就好何必告诉别人
告诉了你，你能做什么
我宁愿自己苦，也不愿告诉你
我愿意给你们看我好的方面，也不想被你看到我的真真那一幕
愿你们开心，不必像我那么烦
又烦又累真的不好受
不说不讲不代表我很好
我愿意做你们地听着，听你们诉苦
When you have a good listener to listen your stories
To be honest you will feel better and at least your will having lesser negative mind-set
It would be fun or nice when you dont have listener to talk to
Cause i dont want to spread the negative side to you guys
Why should i
I rather i get suffer on my own
And be the listener for you guys and the clown to cheer you up
Sacrifice a person better than a bunch of people
This is the old place i could share my things and blogger would be my listener cause its doesnt have feeling
这里就是我最好发泄的地方
I think i had made a mistake
I shouldnt look for you or find you
It should be over and end
我还撕破自己的脸在去讨好你
我也不知道为什么自己那么笨
I can feel it that
I'm not the right person
I'm not the person that can comfort you
I'm not the person you choose to be in path of your life
I'm just being naive try to get close but it just never workout
Things you told me, i can felt that you did not tell the whole things, maybe you just dont want me to know or i should not know it
Cause you are a person that wouldnt share things to me
Most of the things i need to find out by myself or monitor by myself
Why i'm still wasting time on it
To be honest i had no idea on it
When i try to find you for lunch or outing
I can feel that you would not have spare time for me
You giving me a hope (its assume by myself)
They way our message conversation, i can felt that you are just 敷衍
Cause i notice that even i sent a message, you try to ignore my message and doesnt reply me when you are online, i rather delete it the message and end the conversation since that you doesnt like to chat with me and make me waiting for your reply and just like an idiot waiting for hope or miracle that not i expected
But for others i'm not sure
But i'm person that how you treat me and i will do the same things that how you treat me
Having to much of info or news making myself tired and worrying you
I had no idea why should i worry you
You are not mine
I knew some of my post or share you would ignore
90% i can felt that we will not have another date
And i dont have i hope on it as well
I know you rather stay home than going out with me
I cant expect too much on it due to i'm not your somebody to entertain me
Maybe i might be wrong or maybe my sixth senses told me this
I had no idea
I am dump when i'm in love or i like somebody
