Lets talk about good and bad personality that i know from myself

Hmm
Where should i start 1st?
Should be the good 1st or bad 1st?
Hahaha
Hard to make decision in my life

So lets start with the good side
Cause should be not much to talk on the good side as i know
Do i really know myself very well?
Hmm
Firstly i think i never reject anything that requested from people
Anything they ask me help to do
I definitely will do them a favor
Even not my job i still do it for them
Am i kind or am i too easy to do them a favor
Secondly
Sometimes i really mad on that person
I will still care them help them
Even i had no benefits on them
Maybe because i always endure them
Or i felt lonely in my life and i dont want to lose them
So anything i also will do it for them?
Sometimes i can feel them if someone really treat you bad or dont even care about him/her
I really felt
Cause i know if you get ignored or rejected by someone
The feeling damn bad and down
I am 1 of them?

I think i had nothing much to talk on the good side
My negative power too strong
So fast fast finish the good 1
And lets start the bad 1
Buahahhaa

Firstly
Im a bad temper person
Now i think back how does my ex can together with for 2years+++ almost going to be 3years
Im really salute her
And beside that my mom as well
She knew im a bad temper person but she still can take it and still care me
Thanks mom
Secondly
Im really a control freak on girlfriend
Example like my few ex
When texting on phone
Suddenly they didnt reply me or didnt inform me
I'll easily get mad and argue with them
Not only once is almost countless
Am i a control freak or am i a person that doesnt believing my another be half?
Or at least tell me so will not waiting there like a person that no other things to do
Or im too worry of she or her?
Or im afraid to lose her?
And i think because she is only my world
Sometimes they dont even reply my message
I do some stupid things that every girls cant take it
I will go to the facebook are they online or share anything in the facebook instead that replying me
I felt that im really crazy or mad or even worst than that two "words"
Do girls can take it with this kind of attitude guy?
Even myself will said OF CAUSE NO!
Thirdly
I am a person doesnt have any saving
I have RM1000 on hand and i will spend RM1500
I spend more than my salary
I waste a lot money from FOODS, SPENDING NON SENSE THINGS, GAMBLING and ETC.
A guy that going to be 25years old still doesnt have any saving
If i were a girl or lady do i feel comfort or safe with this kind of guys? NO!
Fourthly
I am not a good investor in relation or anything
Example some of the guys they will chat with a bunch of girls and try which of the girl that easily to get or chase
But im only will invest everything on 1 girl
So i just like a gamble
You win you take
You lose you have left nothing
Cause in my heart will have another thinking is
If you really like a person or love a person
Why cant be loyal at 1 person instead of a bunch of people
Because if i invest so many girls i felt bad for them and i thinking if they do the same thing on me... can i accept it? NO! i cant thats why i dont do that on girls
I only will concentrate on 1 girl only
Fifth
When i have another be half or partner in my life
I will expose all my bad attitude to her
Felt bad for her
Feel that i cheated her before we getting together
Cheated her on that im like easy going person
But actually im not
Sixth
Things that i promise her
And i didnt do it for her
Another cheater and scam guy
Always JANJI KOSONG

I think still got a lot more
Just i cant think anymore in the moment
If i can recall more bad attitude or personality
I will continue it on 2nd article or paragraph
And i felt if the girl can control my bad attitude
I think she is really a SUPERWOMAN
But i think if a girl saw this blog....
I think she will run faraway from me
So i wont expect too much or demand too much
Do i need a pretty or perfect girl in my life? NO
I need a person that really can take it my bad attitude or change my life

EVERY SUCCESSFUL MAN
BEHIND HAVE A WOMAN
WILL I FOUND IT IN SOMEDAY?

lol i had gone too far.....

My bad.... lol
I had gone too fast and too far
I think she is afraid of me 😂
Sorry my bad
Chill and relax man (i mean myself) hahaha
Would it be the first and the last?
YES or NO?
I had no idea whether she is reading it or not
If yes then im sorry ya.....
If no then im had no idea what to do what to say

I felt my blog alot of rubbish and suka suka cincai write
But whatever la as long i can type anything i want in here i can type out my feeling rather than keep in my heart
No one will know 😂
Something like my secret base in here

Gonna sleep and prepare for tomorrow work......
Nightz guys....

Throw Back....Big Day for Hokkien People.....

So today i went to my grandma place to have a prayer
拜天宫
In english i had no idea what they called
GOD OF SKY?
GOD OF HEAVEN?
Watashiwa no idea des......

So think year i had bought 2 rows of fire crackers
But in the end we managed to put 1 only cause of some reason from someone else
And that not my house so i just need to follow the instruction

For this year i had a bad feeling
This year not my year
It might be happened alot of things on me
Even this few days i lost my temper on people
Last time i still can take and easy but now i cant
Im easily get mad or angry
I really had no idea what happening on me.....
Now i just need to be control my temper
If not i even i cant think what will happen next......
And i noticed some of the people around doesnt like me
Am i think too much?
Or my six sense broken?
Sometimes i think back
You like or dislike me its your choice
You and me can save the breath and doesnt need to waste energy and saliva
And i not see your face to earn my living
Is your choice
Agree?

So this is the setup for that day
Its already simplify the arrangement and the prayer
Past few years
Its more grand than this
We getting modern and modern
And just pray for blessing from the GOD

Arrangement of the prayer

8 Feet of Firecrackers

So this is my housing area.... Alot of smokes

This area full of Hokkien people

Fireworks and Firecrackers 

It stopped around 2am.....

Im lost again and again... What a complicated lifestyle sial!!!

在这个地球上的人

有谁不爱谈恋爱？

有谁不想要有另一半一起度过？
每个人都会想要
难道我不想要吗？
我也想要啊
只是我不想在冲动的爱上一个人
还没真真的了解一个
多数都是来得快散也快

我发现到我冲动爱上一个人

的原因是我需要安全感？我需要人关心？

我不想要得到关心她的关心而爱上她

因为真的对她很不公平

感觉上好像在利用她

但是我觉得这些事应该我给我另一半做

感觉上我很像一个女生😂
加上我自己的情况和状态
是真的不适合谈恋爱
我不想拖泥带水
我不想要她和我挨一辈子
就算我喜欢上一个人
我会当作没一会是
因为这样让我自己好过
加上我自己也知道我没有恋爱的缘
感觉上现在的我很矛盾

不认识我的人
觉得我很LAN CI
认识我的人
应该觉得我是疯子
有时候我宁愿在你们面前当小丑，当疯子
至少你们不会看到我的伤心的另一面
我宁愿自己累，也不会给别人看到这样的我

I dont know do you guys believe in some NUMEROLOGY, ZODIAC, HOROSCOPE

But some of it i do believe

I will paste the link in here

You guys can check it YOUR PHYSCI OR BIRTH NUMBER and YOUR LIFE PATH OR DESTINY NUMBER

Its an INDIAN NUMEROLOGY CALCULATION

Here is the link http://www.vaastuinternational.com/numerology4.html

Some people said 

Its your destiny to be that then it cant change much

Some people said

Your destiny can be change by yourslef

So which is the correct 1?

有人说

吃的

穿的

用的

是正定 

Reason or excuses?

To be honest...
It came too fast
And its not that i dont want
I just feel that too fast.........

Just let us know more on each other
Before getting start
Cause i had been done alot of mistake in my pass few relation
I dont want to made the same mistake and same ending

And suddenly something happened on yesterday
I also had no idea whats going
And i also did not want to ask to much
Just take it easy (i meant myself)
Dont too rush for anything

And this few days i felt damn tired
Even this morning
I drove with eyes almost close
Even i came back from work same things happened
Really tired
I had no idea what happening
Maybe cause of the weather

IN MY MIND RIGHT NOW
IS TAKE IT EASY AND CALM
NOT TO RUSH OR HURRY
CAUSE THINGS THAT YOU RUSH FOR IT
ITS NOT GONNA END WELL
THE FAST YOU START
THE FAST YOU END......
I'M AFRAID
AND I KNOW MY OWN SITUATION
I'M AFRAID
拖泥带水 (DRAG YOU IN TROUBLE)

Throw back For CNY Eve & Day 1 2 3

This will be my Chinese New Year's stories 

This year might be abit special for reunion dinner

And special trip on the 2nd day of Chinese New Year

So lets start from Chinese New Year Eve

But sadly today i still need to work half day in office

I think whole office less than 20 people? lol

So by the way before i left office i had arrange something on my table =D

So this is the style that i had arranged

Lets ONG ONG this year 

But i left office around 11am like that hahaha

Then i drive to my grandma's house for praying to ancestors 

And my grandma prepare those food that my grandpa's favourite dishes

This is the food that she prepared for the prayer

After prayer this and that 

I get back and rush to downstair to wash my car 😍

Sorry ya no pictures to show my car

And not a luxury car but dent here and there haha

I rather clean my car than my bedroom hahah

Cause i love my car than my bedroom 😂

So after done everything

The night would be our reunion dinner

And we had made something special for this year

We celebrate in Fahrenhiet88 CEO Neway

Buffet eat as much as you can

And Sing up to 4am.......

Sorry for the blur picture

Cause im oldman satu and hand shaking 😓

This is a fast forward video from the entrance and food area to the K room

And on that im quite pissed off.....

Cause the elders they left around 12am

And they young 1 stay there and continue sing (Me, My sis, My two cousins)

So i were thought that we will leave there maybe around 1 or 2am

Cause i had the go for 2nd round at my friend's house for GAMBLE

At the end the sing till around 3am

And i sitting there doing nothing and im felt grateful that some mystery person accompany me texting and tried to calm me down

Thanks ya

Cause i dont sing and felt that im like 陪坐先生 

If i knew i should go back with my parents 

But anyhow already passed no need to keep in heart la

So for the gamble side i will skip la 

Nothing to talk much in there and beside

This is the picture that we taken

We start to gathering from 2014 to upcoming years......

This will be the photo of 2018

And beside that 

I ask and told them 

How long we still can be together and take photo like this?

In the moments my heart my feeling really down

If someday 1 of us around not around or they have their own family will we able to take this kind of photo anymore? haha

Silly thinking and silly question to ask them on 1st Day of Chinese New Year

Stupid me 

So the 1st Day of Chines New Year...

I didnt even take any selfie pic 

Cause i dont really like to take photo due to i have low confidence and fugly face 😂

Beside that dont really have much stories to tell la

Just like a normal day and all the relatives (only my aunts) came to grandma's house

But i really miss the moments when my grandpa still around

Its really felt Chinese New Year

After he left us i dont have the Chinese New Year mood or feel

If grandpa was here....it would be fun.... honestly quite miss grandpa 😭

2nd Day of Chinese New Year

We are traveling upto Betong,Thailand by car.....

And last minutes planning

To be honest i dont really wanted to go

Because of my parents and the traffic 

1st cause my parents... they are planning to drive up all the way from KL to Betong,Thailand

I as a son dont i felt worry? So no choice i rather go there and accompany them and drive for them

Impossible ask my dad drive all the way by he alone

And my mom....she have license but didnt drive for more than 10years cause of some reason la

2nd cause the traffic... i been stucked in jam for the past few year of Chinese New Year and i know the way back to KL traffic is damn jam and it could jam for 4-12Hours (depends from where)

To be honest i dont really like the way they plan the trip and abit fail la

Paiseh another blur photo

We left home around 5am in the morning

So bidor will be our 1st stop

To gather with my uncles and cousin

So we had breakfast around the market (i think so la cause not familiar with the place and morning abit blur blur)

I think is the market

After the breakfast we continue our journey and we stopped some RnR area

And change driver

Thats would be me 😂

I drive all the way from RnR to Betong,Thailand border

Before we drive to border

We stopped at Kuala Kangsar to pump petrol and Fatt Choy (4D Lotto)

And this is the KAKI JUDI (actually im also one of them and i asked my dad to buy for me and i pump petrol)

After i drove all the way to Betong,Thailand border

And this is the customs of Malaysia

Malaysia Customs (Pengkalan Hulu) and i damn champion i forgotten to snap photo of Thailand Customs (Betong)

Entering to Thailand

We need to queue and fillup the form this and that

And the queue damn long and need to pay RM2 

Even when we exit from Thailand still need to pay another RM2.....

Whatever la 

Oh ya this is the photo that i taken around the Thailand Customs 😓

So once we reach there

The first things is.... LOOK FOR FOOD!!!!!

So this is our 1st meal in Betong and the price quite cheap (my cousin told me that 3 dishes costs for 100Baht)

I dont think KL you can get this kind of price

By the way the food is not bad cause im half siamese so i can accept the food and the taste 

So after the lunch 

We went to 7 Eleven bought some snacks

And i really in love with their 7 Eleven

They have alot of choices and the price is quite cheap compare with Malaysia 7 Elven

So bought some burgers that the most i like (pork burger!!!)

And we also bought KitKat ice cream

I think should be normal la not very special

Matcha KitKat ice cream and i dont really like it...taste weird for me

And this is food from 7 Eleven!!!

After shoping in 7 Eleven

We go around to look for hotel

Cause we didnt book before we came here

Actually we wanted to book at Hilltop hotel

But its fully booked 

So we try our luck to book over there but unfortunately still fully booked 

But nevermind we bought ticket entrance to see the flowers......

Local people dancing

And this the place name

Abit waste time and money

Cause we dont really know how to enjoy the flowers.....

I dont is what types of species 

I only know its flowers

Hahaha

After view the flowers

Next station would be communist museum 

View before the place

Piyamit Tunnel

And that siao zha bor (Mad Girl) is my sis

This is the Visit Point of the place

But you need to purchase the ticket before entering

The stairways to those tunnel and museum looks easy but not really

Lazy to explain hahaahahaha

Any question comment below la 

So next station Hot Spring

And.... i forgot to take photo again cause of eat eat eat.....

And this is Kaki Kuat Makan at Hot Spring and the food nice and cheap sial

After visit this few spot

Continue our journey to look for hotel room

And luckily we found 1

Hahaha

And we quite lucky get the high floor and can take nice view

Sunet view from my hotel room and the town

And this is clock tower in the town and its a roundabout

And the electricity wired full of birds and my mom KENA jackpot from 1 of them 😂

ONG ahHHH

Hunt for food again.....

Licin and i forgot to take the photo again haha 😂

Street view and full of Malaysia cars 😂

This tunnel in the day car can passby

And in the night its blocked and alot of lights in the tunnel

3rd Day of Chinese New Year

Morning view

Foggy and cooling 

And i think this is the biggest house that i saw around here

Betong,Thailand Town

Panorama

And breakfast i didnt ate anything cause we booked 3Rooms and only served 6pax of breakfast 

I need to stay in room to wait them done

After that i look some food in the town.....

So this is the morning street view

And i notice their land god quite beautiful leh compare with Malaysia style

And this is my breakfast for me 

Damn tasty and cost for 80Baht

And show you guys some my sis's ugly face

Hahaha

If she knew it will get killed

After had my breakfast and their shopping around the town 

We are checking out and go around the town to see the places

And by the way we only stay there for a night

Due to no more room around Betong area

So we need to get back to KL in the same day

So after check out 

We went for few temples around the town 

1st temple Thai style

This is the 1st temple that we went

I have no idea what is the temple name 😂

Yup thats me and my sis 😀

My cousin she managed to get free ice cream from the uncle Buy 6 get 1 Free

Per cup costs for 20Baht

Quite nice

After having our ice cream we continue to walk around the temple

And this marble quite surprisingly i can stay there for whole day

Cause its not hot or warm at all even its under the sun 

2nd temple Chinese style

After the temples 

Then we gone for lunch before we leave Thailand

Another epic fail from me

Forgot to take photo again

Hahaha

Ahhh luckily i got took photo of the Thailand Customs

But abit ugly la but better than nothing la

Hahaha

So we cross Malaysia customs around 4pm+++

And we stopped at Sg Perak RnR for dinner 

Actually we wanted to stop in ipoh 

Due to the traffice.....

So we rather had dinner in RnR then direct back to KL

This is the jam......

And this is the petrol staion full or cars.....

And this what we done in car (me, mom and my sis just play for fun)

But after that i help my dad drive all the way back to KL

And we came out form Malaysia customs to KL i took us almost 11Hours to reach home.....

But while jamming we stil have some free fireworks to see

So this is my Chinese New Year Eve & Day 1 2 3.....

I damn cincai write

Cause too long and tired

I had start to write from 10pm and almost end by 12am....

Enjoy and comment how can i improve my writing skills or organize the things

NEWBIE HERE....

Tired

Nightz and enjoy my blog

And thanks!!!