I Hat3 mY Curr3nt Lif3~

At last
I cant take it anymore
I felt tired to keep everything inside
Im just 19years old boy
What the h*** i think so much

After i came out to society i just start to know what called life
-Career
-Trustful from or by others
-Hardworking
-Think before we do
-Responsible
-Etc etc

After i started to drive an old car from my dad
Its not easy to maintain a car at all
You need to pay this to fix this and that
Everything is money
Kinda like having a baby
-Need to feed them
-Need to buy this and that for them

After i started to work
I still no idea which way should i go
Which industry school i stay n learn up their tricks
Im still stuck at here
Why i cant be mature
Why i cant think for my future

Money is everything for humanbeing
And this few months i cant even save a single cents at all
Once i get my pay
I need to pay this and that
I left nothing at all

Love?
I felt that im not qualified on LOVE
No stable career
No stable income
No money
No future
So NO LOVE for me
Im being a guy why i failed so many things?
Im being a guy why i afraid so many things?
Im being a guy why i cant tell her that i love or not love her?
Im being a guy why should i wait for somebody to tell me she love me?
Im kinda not guts at all

I NEED A LEADER AND LUCKY STAR IN MY LIFE
When will you appear in my life?
Im waiting for u all the while