Thursday, 4 October 2018
Help? Friends?
Sometimes we treat people around us
We need to agak agak not too over help them
You know why?
When you need them
Did they appear?
Answer from me is NOPE
HOPELESS sial
When they are no one to find
JENG JENG JENG
Here its come
Can help me a?
This 1 how a?
That 1 how a?
WHAT THE FUCK!?
YOU THIS FUCKING BASTARD
When no one cares you or no one entertain you
You only come and look for me?
Or my looks like a SPARE FRIEND when you dont have someone
Really damn pissed
FELT BEEN USED
YOU KNOW WHAT?
HOW YOU TREAT ME
SOMEDAY YOU GONNA GET IT BACK FROM ME
REVENGE?
NOPE I AM LETTING YOU FEEL HOW I FELT WHEN I NEED A HELP
HOW YOU TREAT ME AND THIS I WILL TREAT YOU BACK THE SAME WAY
IN MY HEART WILL TELL YOU
GO AND FLY KITE DUMBASS
Certain only NOT ALL
People that treat me well
No worry YOU ARE IN SAFE ZONE
BARE IN MIND
KARMA IS BITCH
Tuesday, 26 June 2018
A word a sentence means alot of things....
Sunday, 8 April 2018
Shall i be glad of it?
I'm glad that you, you, you and you
Had made a good and wise decision
Cause all this while
I felt that my life is...
Follow what people do and never had my own opinion
Always get opinion from people and make myself lost and never had my own choice
And i don't really know what people thinking and all the while I'm guessing and guessing
And somehow what i think and what i guess is totally different
Maybe sometimes things are easy but i made it complicated
Cause i think too much and I'm afraid
Things that happened or ended i tried not to bother or get it back cause i felt I'm annoyed people
But sometimes i tried but it's still failed
So i rather escape from it
To be honest i had no idea what should i do next
Really lost
It's just like a cow or a dog that the owner pull them to everywhere and doesn't need to care or bother any damn thing just follow them
That just like me
Life just like a building
When you just started begin your journey of life
And you just like on a landed housing
When the pressure and stress came to you
It's starting too build storey by storey
A single storey house and day by day accumulated the pressure and stress
And it builds like a hundreds or thousands floors
When the time come
Whether the building collapse or jump down from the building
Living in this world looks easy
But to survive not easy
Things may looks easy but in reality nothing is easy in this world
Saturday, 31 March 2018
Im.....
Its that every each time need the guy approach first or?
Even i didnt find her
I think she should be ok with it
Or i freaked her out
I think i should pull out and gave up?
Maybe is a good choice for you and me?
If a person really have the mean on you
He or she will automatically find him or her
But i felt....
Haha
But whatever la
一个掌永远拍不响
Just wait the fate come
Too desperate will have nothing in the end.......
Thursday, 29 March 2018
1 Old Man is HERE
Saturday, 24 March 2018
Im easily....
Cause in my mind that
Things that not belong to you
How hard you tried
How hard you had been trough
Sometimes its not yours means not yours
I rather gave up and find things that belonging me
Rather than wasting my time on it
But some people said
If you want it
You need to fight for it
But do we really need to be in this way in our life?
I rather give up
Maybe im too weak?
Or im have no patience?
Maybe both?
I think is both
Hahaha
What should i do?
Just be myself and time will prove everything?
Wednesday, 14 March 2018
Everything is end
Yay or Nay?
Someone had warn me and told me before
But i try to believe her and cheating myself
To cover my face and her
Not really gonna said much about it
Hope your future BF treat you well and better than me
Continue to be friend?
Im sorry i cant make it
Cause you are going to be in relation and im keep chatting with you or what
I felt annoy and disturbing
And i can feel that too
Cause im a guy and i dont really like another guy to annoy my girl
Maybe im selfish?
But anyway good luck and all the best la
I think sooner you will intro thi guy to your parents
Cause you gonna graduate and you can do anything as you wish
But i felt unfair for me
Together with you
Even your parents doesnt not my existing
Cause your parents cant accept it and you dont dare to say anything
Together with you im quite happy
But our relation is keep secret and hide from your parents side
Yup
If you saw this
You will even more disappointed and even hate me more
But anyway dont happened anything on you that what i hope
Thursday, 8 March 2018
NO TITLE
Things happened to sudden!?
Wednesday, 7 March 2018
Things that........
Things that you never say it out
Or tell it out that actual things that happened
And you keep it in your heart
Its does not feel good
Cause people will misunderstand
And you are tiring to hide from people and suffer your own
Do you guys agree with it?
Sometimes
We said it out
Be honest with it
Do they can accept it?
Maybe yes? Then im glad that everything its ok
If they cant accept it? Then we are in trouble? Or in deepsh*t?
Sometimes
Its difficult for us
But some portion of them
They dont really care much of others feeling
They feel good
I wish that i could be that too
Cause i doesnt need to care others feelin
Just do whatever i want
Do you guys feel great?
But in someways people will felt that you are a selfish person
I never show my true color on somebody that i doesnt felt comfort
Cause i showed my true color and they cant accept it, its my fault too
And i showed my true face and personality and its just finish like that
累了
我能告诉谁?
我能表达给谁?
我还是要继续走下去
你想要个安慰
难道我不想吗?
只是这个是人生必定会发生的事
痛了
我能告诉谁?
我能表达给谁?
我还是要隐藏,我没事,别担心
我还是藏在心里痛在心里
我是人,不是木,不是铁,我有感情的
伤了
我能告诉谁?
我能表达给谁?
我还是假惺惺当作没一回事,要隐藏不开心的一面
我还是要做出我过得很好,我很开心
哭了
我能告诉谁?
我能表达给谁?
我还是要躲起来哭,不想给人看我的脆弱的一面
其实只是表面而已,心里却不是这样
有时候人看到的和看不到的东西
差别很多
如果有的选择的话
我宁愿我不存在在这个世界里
Im glad that i have someone to talk and share
Monday, 5 March 2018
I am back to online
But anyhow i still tired like hell
Its means
Monday, 26 February 2018
Lets talk about good and bad personality that i know from myself
Where should i start 1st?
Should be the good 1st or bad 1st?
Hahaha
Hard to make decision in my life
So lets start with the good side
Cause should be not much to talk on the good side as i know
Do i really know myself very well?
Hmm
Firstly i think i never reject anything that requested from people
Anything they ask me help to do
I definitely will do them a favor
Even not my job i still do it for them
Am i kind or am i too easy to do them a favor
Secondly
Sometimes i really mad on that person
I will still care them help them
Even i had no benefits on them
Maybe because i always endure them
Or i felt lonely in my life and i dont want to lose them
So anything i also will do it for them?
Sometimes i can feel them if someone really treat you bad or dont even care about him/her
I really felt
Cause i know if you get ignored or rejected by someone
The feeling damn bad and down
I am 1 of them?
I think i had nothing much to talk on the good side
My negative power too strong
So fast fast finish the good 1
And lets start the bad 1
Buahahhaa
Firstly
Im a bad temper person
Now i think back how does my ex can together with for 2years+++ almost going to be 3years
Im really salute her
And beside that my mom as well
She knew im a bad temper person but she still can take it and still care me
Thanks mom
Secondly
Im really a control freak on girlfriend
Example like my few ex
When texting on phone
Suddenly they didnt reply me or didnt inform me
I'll easily get mad and argue with them
Not only once is almost countless
Am i a control freak or am i a person that doesnt believing my another be half?
Or at least tell me so will not waiting there like a person that no other things to do
Or im too worry of she or her?
Or im afraid to lose her?
And i think because she is only my world
Sometimes they dont even reply my message
I do some stupid things that every girls cant take it
I will go to the facebook are they online or share anything in the facebook instead that replying me
I felt that im really crazy or mad or even worst than that two "words"
Do girls can take it with this kind of attitude guy?
Even myself will said OF CAUSE NO!
Thirdly
I am a person doesnt have any saving
I have RM1000 on hand and i will spend RM1500
I spend more than my salary
I waste a lot money from FOODS, SPENDING NON SENSE THINGS, GAMBLING and ETC.
A guy that going to be 25years old still doesnt have any saving
If i were a girl or lady do i feel comfort or safe with this kind of guys? NO!
Fourthly
I am not a good investor in relation or anything
Example some of the guys they will chat with a bunch of girls and try which of the girl that easily to get or chase
But im only will invest everything on 1 girl
So i just like a gamble
You win you take
You lose you have left nothing
Cause in my heart will have another thinking is
If you really like a person or love a person
Why cant be loyal at 1 person instead of a bunch of people
Because if i invest so many girls i felt bad for them and i thinking if they do the same thing on me... can i accept it? NO! i cant thats why i dont do that on girls
I only will concentrate on 1 girl only
Fifth
When i have another be half or partner in my life
I will expose all my bad attitude to her
Felt bad for her
Feel that i cheated her before we getting together
Cheated her on that im like easy going person
But actually im not
Sixth
Things that i promise her
And i didnt do it for her
Another cheater and scam guy
Always JANJI KOSONG
I think still got a lot more
Just i cant think anymore in the moment
If i can recall more bad attitude or personality
I will continue it on 2nd article or paragraph
And i felt if the girl can control my bad attitude
I think she is really a SUPERWOMAN
But i think if a girl saw this blog....
I think she will run faraway from me
So i wont expect too much or demand too much
Do i need a pretty or perfect girl in my life? NO
I need a person that really can take it my bad attitude or change my life
EVERY SUCCESSFUL MAN
BEHIND HAVE A WOMAN
WILL I FOUND IT IN SOMEDAY?
lol i had gone too far.....
I had gone too fast and too far
I think she is afraid of me 😂
Sorry my bad
Chill and relax man (i mean myself) hahaha
Would it be the first and the last?
YES or NO?
I had no idea whether she is reading it or not
If yes then im sorry ya.....
If no then im had no idea what to do what to say
I felt my blog alot of rubbish and suka suka cincai write
But whatever la as long i can type anything i want in here i can type out my feeling rather than keep in my heart
No one will know 😂
Something like my secret base in here
Gonna sleep and prepare for tomorrow work......
Nightz guys....
Sunday, 25 February 2018
Throw Back....Big Day for Hokkien People.....
拜天宫
In english i had no idea what they called
GOD OF SKY?
GOD OF HEAVEN?
Watashiwa no idea des......
So think year i had bought 2 rows of fire crackers
But in the end we managed to put 1 only cause of some reason from someone else
And that not my house so i just need to follow the instruction
For this year i had a bad feeling
This year not my year
It might be happened alot of things on me
Even this few days i lost my temper on people
Last time i still can take and easy but now i cant
Im easily get mad or angry
I really had no idea what happening on me.....
Now i just need to be control my temper
If not i even i cant think what will happen next......
And i noticed some of the people around doesnt like me
Am i think too much?
Or my six sense broken?
Sometimes i think back
You like or dislike me its your choice
You and me can save the breath and doesnt need to waste energy and saliva
And i not see your face to earn my living
Is your choice
Agree?
So this is the setup for that day
Its already simplify the arrangement and the prayer
Past few years
Its more grand than this
We getting modern and modern
And just pray for blessing from the GOD
Im lost again and again... What a complicated lifestyle sial!!!
每个人都会想要
难道我不想要吗?
我也想要啊
只是我不想在冲动的爱上一个人
还没真真的了解一个
多数都是来得快散也快
加上我自己的情况和状态
是真的不适合谈恋爱
我不想拖泥带水
我不想要她和我挨一辈子
就算我喜欢上一个人
我会当作没一会是
因为这样让我自己好过
加上我自己也知道我没有恋爱的缘
感觉上现在的我很矛盾
不认识我的人
觉得我很LAN CI
认识我的人
应该觉得我是疯子
有时候我宁愿在你们面前当小丑,当疯子
至少你们不会看到我的伤心的另一面
我宁愿自己累,也不会给别人看到这样的我
Thursday, 22 February 2018
Reason or excuses?
It came too fast
And its not that i dont want
I just feel that too fast.........
Just let us know more on each other
Before getting start
Cause i had been done alot of mistake in my pass few relation
I dont want to made the same mistake and same ending
And suddenly something happened on yesterday
I also had no idea whats going
And i also did not want to ask to much
Just take it easy (i meant myself)
Dont too rush for anything
And this few days i felt damn tired
Even this morning
I drove with eyes almost close
Even i came back from work same things happened
Really tired
I had no idea what happening
Maybe cause of the weather
IN MY MIND RIGHT NOW
IS TAKE IT EASY AND CALM
NOT TO RUSH OR HURRY
CAUSE THINGS THAT YOU RUSH FOR IT
ITS NOT GONNA END WELL
THE FAST YOU START
THE FAST YOU END......
I'M AFRAID
AND I KNOW MY OWN SITUATION
I'M AFRAID
拖泥带水 (DRAG YOU IN TROUBLE)