Can it be fair in this world? No!

你自己也会生气，不爽，不开心

难道我不会吗？

i send you a message in the morning

you didnt reply at all

till night 9+ i message you also take time to reply me 

and told me that you are at outside without notice me 

if this situation happen i do on you 

what will you think?

did you ever care about the feeling how it feel?

im not sure 

so i decide to block you for few minutes

you had been upset with it

just a few minutes.......

i had been wait for half day

i didnt even make any noise or complain anything

i rather keep in myself

did you know?

did you know how it feel?

i tell you its feel damn bad when the love did that you

sometimes i dont even write anything in the facebook or wechat moments

cause my colleagues told me before

not anything should write and let people know about it

yeap i learnt that

so i rather keep it for myself

its tired its feel bad man

so should i happy that i have a blog without viewwers?

yes im happy with it

at least this is the place i can write it out my heart feeling 

do you think i felt good to do this to you?

I DONT THINK SO

its dont feel good at all 

its UPSETTING 

No comment ........

如果我们分

我不会怪你

我也不会怪我自己

1-2月 没碰过你

碰到你好像不爽我将

就算心里有别人

也好吧

你好我也好

哈哈哈

suka suka 就信息我

bo suka not even 1 message or reply to me 

so what should i do?

shall we break up 

for your own good as well

better future at least no need together with this kind of LAN TAN (useless person in cantonese)

felt we are different kind of person and different direction

i think i should make more friends 

at least i wont use my spare time and think those non-sense

at least i feel relax abit no need to think that stupid things

Tired with the job

Tired with the life
Work work work
3days fair in Midvalley
🤔🤔🤔 should be 4days

1st day Setup hot and sweating like hell in the exhibition hall without aircond and with those smell and dust
F*ck!!!

2nd day early wake up and rush down and setup and arrange those stupid demos
Almost half a day only done

3rd day slightly relax but need to walk around get competitor info sell through and take photo of the fair

4th day the last day means today
Need to stay back and pack those stuffs and calculate and wait transporter to pick up

Damn lifeless
Get a paid that not even 2k but need to do so much of works

Everyday 1hour break and 1 meal
Nice!? 🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕

Should i blame the job or should i blame on myself that i dont study hard so i need to work in this kind of environment

I think i should blame myself 😐

Debt debt debt....

Im gonna KISIAO soon

With debts....

Although the amount is not alot

But every month left nothing

Im wondering how much of pay or salary only enough for me or people to survive on this EARTH

Felt that we born to work work work and pay debts or earn to survive

Everyday work work work 

To pay debts 

Even we sleeping we also are still using money

Eg- Electricity, House loan/rent, Water, Maintenance fees, etc etc

Bla bla bla bla bla bla......

Going to work time also money Petrol, Tolls, Car Parking

After all that kind of payment somemore need to pay Car Loan, Car Servicing, Car Insurance, Car RoadTax

Daily meals money again for a person you can spent the most minimum amount RM10 for a meal what if you have family

Beside that if we have own house

Need to pay House Loan, Maintenance fees, Water bill, Electricity bill, Home appliances

When our parents are getting older and older we need to take care of them money again (This money are should be spent on them cause they brought us up and feed us while we young)

What if getting marry

Spend money again for the Wedding Photo, Wedding Dinner, Bla bla bla bla 10k? 20k? 50k? 100k? enough?

After marry having joy having fun on the bed 😆

Having kids another expenses again food for them, entertainment, daily needs, school, etc etc etc

Even when we died also money

Before die you get sick this and that (to pay medical)

After died ceremony money your RIP lot unit, 5k? 10k? depends on your units (Bungalow, Apartment, Condo)😆

Everything is money

Never ending without money

我....

我的痛

你知道吗？

我的累

你知道吗？

我的苦

你知道吗？

我的好

你知道吗？

我的烦恼

你知道吗？

我对你的好

你知道吗？

我在乎你

你知道吗？

我疼你

你知道吗？

我的感受

你知道吗？

我需要点称赞

你知道吗？

我需要你陪

你知道吗？

我不想说原因

你知道吗？

我需要你在乎我点

你知道吗？

我付出那么多在你身上

你知道吗？

你到底知不知道？

你到底想怎样？

你到底在想生么？

你会感恩吗？

你会感动吗？

你会在乎吗？

你会珍惜吗？

你说的每句话

你有想过我的感受吗？

你想怎样

我都让你了

看开了

我不懂还可以做什么

寻找“水鱼” ？？？

有谁需要个水鱼朋友？

找人陪？

找人付钱？

找司机？

想利用我？

这里有一个

做那么多

对人那么好

替人想

付出那么多

那个人会珍惜吗？

会感恩吗？

感觉上我做这些事

是我该做的

是理所当然

当作我欠你们的

当作我前世欠你门

今世还你们

在乎的越多

关心的越多

疼的越多

伤的还是自己

痛的也是自己

他人感受到吗？

他会理你吗？

Why ...

Why im ...

Why so sudden feel down ...

What happened to me ...

Can anyone tell me?

Im ...

Im .... .... lost

Please guide me out 

I dont want to stuck alone in here

Its dark and creepy 

Its make me gonna .........

I ... tried not to so stupid things ...

...... 

I tried to make it easy 

Not to think much ....

But .....

Im sorry ......

The heart sick the pain u guys will never know

Cause i admit is my fault .... i never share my feelings to anyone .......

Someday if im lost or disappear please not to remember who am i or act that i never came to here before ....

.......